A comment from my Professor

Below is a comment from my professor who supervises me for a project. Such verbosity for a rebuke was a little over the board, but nevertheless I feel I should treasure it. So am blogging it down and hope to build more on this particular piece of blog, dedicating it to my supervisor Alvaro A. A. Fernandes. Will do one day for sure. :) but not now.

"your idea of doing the plan using a sophisticated tool may well be fine but is almost always, as in this case, an unnecessary complication with negative consequences for understandability. It would have been better to just have a simpler Gantt chart rather than these monstrosities that programs, such as you used, typically produce."

My Bucket List!!

This piece of blog, I would like to update as and when it hits me and when I nail it. This will be my bucket list. My list of things to do before I add myself to the fertility of this soil. I am just another human with just another list of wishes. So here I put them down.

I don’t know how many I would be able to complete or how silly it might seem in some years from now. But nevertheless this is where I let myself go. This is where I say, I have done it all. This is where I will say, I know I will rest in peace.

1. Buy a bullet, a leather jacket, a RayBan aviator and a canon SLR camera.

2. Travel to Himalayas and back in the bullet with my friends. Take as many pics as possible. Want to make an album for a life time.

3. Go around with my parents on a one month long world trip, followed by taking them to all those sacred places in India. Want to see them happy and laughing.

4. Bungee Jumping and Sky Diving are a must.

5. Trek to Agasthyarkoodam, Vayanadu, Manasarovar, (Will fill the list as and when I recollect them)

6. Places to see - Almost all visitable places in all states in India. US n UK already done. Left Africa(Madagascar if possible), Australia, Dubai, Egypt, Rome, Paris, Srilanka.

7. Have booze to the level of no prevalence of senses for one night.

8. Make something out of the group X5ive. It is a group of 9 good friends now. Want to make the group count for a good course, something that would help people who are not as fortunate as we are. Something that we would all be proud to be passing onto the next generation. A good will ambassador our group will be.

Will make the list bigger and bigger.. :)

RIP N73, Reality Check!!

Finally my mobile phone died on me. After all the torture it has been through for the past 4 years it had been with me, it decided to leave me for good. I used to carry it around with me all the time. But this time, I forgot to take it out of my pocket and suffocated it to death in soap water. Cruel me!!

It was my first phone, which I bought with my own earned money. My first own possession with my own money. It had come with me wherever I traveled, for the past 4 years. And it has played a role in my life, which is by no comparison, minuscule in nature. It helped me emote, talk, erase away distances, with a few fights, comfort, support and helped me stay close to family n friends. Its only when something passes away, that you tend to realize the real value of them. I guess this is one of those moments.

Now I know, if at all anyone reads this, would think that, how more silly can he get to write about the loss of his mobile phone. But I thought I should make a note of this time. This is the time when I felt how hard it is to lose something that you earned. Had I brought a new phone, when this was still alive I would have never thought in this way. I guess the same is with human relations also. If you are the one walking away, then I guess you would never know the loneliness and the vacuum you left behind. You have to be the person who is stranded in the middle of nowhere, when you believed the other person would be there for you forever even to the level of taking it for granted, that you feel alone. I guess I did that to many without even realizing it. And when the reality bites you, it bites you hard. It leaves you in a state where you cannot do anything about it, other than just watch the consequences of it, unfold in front of you. I only hope that it is true, when I say 'its never late'.

I started writing this piece of blog under the name RIP N73. But I guess that name would no longer suit, because it never occurred to me to write the previous paragraph, when I started on this particular entry. I guess I get too carried away at times :). But I guess a reality check is always the need of the hour, to keep yourself real!!!

Here goes another one!!!

A decision made. Executed it. Another made. Plan to execute it next year. Well here is a toast to what has been so far an exciting and adventurous year. So far it has gone according to plan.

To tell the truth I always hated to have a plan and I always tried to stay away from people who has the plans till their death drawn in a pile of bullet points. But here I am trying to plan my next year. But this is not something I can leave for chance. So I better plan it.

Even though personally a new year made no much of a difference, it always brought along with it a sense of excitement. Something new to look forward to. At least psychologically. So this is a toast to a year gone, and another toast to the new one coming up. Now let me get some sleep!!

Non Existent Destination

So here I am after a gap of long, almost, 2 years giving blogging yet another shot. The last post was when I was in San Francisco back in 2009. This time, I am writing from another Non Indian place, from Manchester, a city in the North West part of England.

So what am I doing here. Yes, I have been asking that question myself for the past 5 years, irrespective of where I was at each point of time. Each time, I try to convince myself that I am gonna do something different. Come on man, all I got is one life. DO something with it. And after each attempt, I end up asking the same question. Is this what I wanted? I know sound confused, but I have come across a few like minded people. Some even give me a term for it - Mid Life Crisis. Given my age of 27, I am almost nearing what I wish to be my middle age. But is that this? May be, may be not, may be that I dont want to accept the facts.

Coming to the question of what I am doing in this part of the world. After 5 years of toiling hard for a software company(literally), I decided to give myself a break. I decided to take the adventurous route of a being a student once more. I enrolled myself into a Masters in Computer Science at the University of Manchester. Why did I chose UK? Because my GATE score got sunk in a state full of Computer Science Engineers. More than 7 lakh Computer Science Engineers wrote GATE in the year in which I wrote the exam. If you throw a stone into that crowd, it does not even stand a chance to hit the ground. So I decided to chose a different path, but my 'different' path was not so much of a different path for Indians I guess. My class here in Manchester has got a fair bit of Indian flavor to it. So much for the 'different' thinking.

So once I came here, I settled down, took a deep breath and went on to do my studies. I knew this is what I wanted. But after the end of the first Semester, when the predicted 'white' christmas is to dawn upon us, I am left contemplating - Is this all what I wanted? Where do I go next? Is there anything called a destination in life? Or the existence of a destination in life is so non-existent? Am I following a Non Existent Destination ?

Living Life SE style

Just took a walk around. To see if there is anything about which I can write, just for the sake of it. I guess not. Well its raining outside. It has been like that the entire day. Not that I dont like rain, i just so want to get soaked. Yeah you can ask me what is it that is stopping me. And my answer will be absolutely "nothing". But when it is a little below 8 degrees outside, I'drather stay in the coziness of my bed. Also I lost the innocence of the child long back to do before I think. If I were a child, mymind would have said, look its rain outside, lets get drenched. Now my "grown up" mind brings in the utmost chill of the wind that is going to come with it. The hotel where I live, is by the valley of a mountain and so its cool breeze year around, even if you want it or not. So live life lazy, Software Engineer style.

To get started..If it is one

Ok. Here goes nothing. I am writing this not because I love to write, actually I hate writing. But because I abolutely have nothing else to do. I know this is the lame excuse every bored Software Engineer gives, before getting married. After marriage they have more than enough trouble in their hand to even notice that they are living the exact same life. Hmm..I dint even think that I will write4 complete sentence before I stop. Now i get to know why some people turn to writing. I do not mean everyone, but people whom you think can never do such a thing, just like me. Because they are simply bored to death.

PS: I am no serious blogger. I am trying to pass on my boredom to you guys. They are absolutely my view point on things. And If you dont like it, well you can start one of your own to prove your point.